Look! Look! My fabulous new pencils compliments of my friend Kelley. She hoped they would inspire me to continue blogging so this post is in her honor.
It’s been a long time since I’ve visited this site. It was initially started to help me become “relevant” as I started thinking about going back to work. My password was even some secure version of This Will Get Me A Job. I think I was hired before I posted an article, but still… I don’t think it hurt in the job karma universe.
Where have I been? Teetering on the edge of sanity, that’s where. Baffled that I’m not a superhero and can’t remember everyone’s schedules without writing them down. Perplexed because my “I’ll use the crockpot today!” intentions die a thousand deaths EveryTime and I rely on frozen Trader Joe’s entrees more often than should be allowed. Curious how all these people around me walk the planet and seamlessly seem to juggle their lives and remember Girl Scout meetings and birthday parties and find time to come home after work and cook for their families and read to their kids at night. I usually pick one and that’s my pat on the back. I think I hold it together fairly well externally. (Well, pretend you don’t hear me stuttering and sputtering, trying to articulate a word that just doesn’t want to travel from my brain to my mouth since my brain be fulled up. Sometimes I terrify myself and probably the people around me.) But really – how I had unintentionally taken time for granted!
I’ve been working for 10 months now and still can’t believe how fast it’s gone. I have a great job. I love the people I work with and the opportunities I’m afforded. I have my own little family at work and they, too, get me. And tolerate me. I don’t even have to turn off the “Marilee.” These pencils will have a place of honor at work and I don’t think anyone will blink. If the company owners can laugh with me when I share the phrase “fhuck knuckle” (gleaned from a True Blood episode) and nobody blinks when I squeak “fhuck me!” at my computer when it’s not cooperating, I’m at home. (Side story: I was entering my office building on a rainy day two days ago and just about ate it on the sidewalk and just barely managed to right myself before a “fhuck me!” slipped out. A coworker faux-shouted “Did you just assault me?!?” Maybe funnier in person, but see?) I’m supported at work and still get tons of support from family and friends. Y’all keep me sane and content and I’m so fortunate to have a circle of old and new surrounding me. Today happens to be my birthday so I’m reflecting on these blessings.
It also means I’m going out to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory shortly for gluttony. So, au revoir for now!